Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Do we really need a F@ck it List?

It’s getting spread all over the blogosphere, this F@ck it List concept. 

F*ck it! List Planner Stickers
Needless to say, this happening the day after I decided to commit to lists and plannings, is shaking off my mind.
After reading some articles about it (here, here, here), which I absolutely loved, I am pondering.
I never exactly thought of bucket lists, more of concrete, mindful lists of things that are actually achievable with a little bit of organization.

But there is, of course, another point to it: am I willing to struggle to get THIS organization?

Before writing any list, as I said before, we should think that life is so full and stressful, that we might want to spend our free time just relaxing and scrolling on Pinterest. That is ok.
What is not ok is (while scrolling) to live with constant regrets of “couldas” that we can still, actually, could.
I would never write on a bucket list “travel the world”. I am a bit too pragmatic for that.
But let’s say my dream is to visit Japan. Well, expensive for sure, but not so impossible.

So let’s say I make a bucket list out of my bucket list. All the things I need to do to actually go to Japan.
Researching flight cost, possible itineraries, possible shopping that would make me spend more money than the two points before…
Then I would get an idea of the budget.
Then I would make a list of how to actually get this money.

And there comes the real question: do I prefer to avoid going out to eat, to avoid buying chocolate and chips and useless things; to buy groceries where is actually convenient and not nearer; to avoid the cheer-up-shopping; the extremely expensive (even if rare) coffees out; to prepare my meals for work every day, no matter what…
Or do I just want to enjoy the little things in life every day and f@ck Japan???

That is a personal choice that can be applied to everything.
What matter is: think about it. Most dreams are achievable, we just need not to let time pass by for nothing and start planning them NOW.

Your life is your story. Write well. Edit often.:
If I want a regrets-free life, maybe I do need a bucket list instead of a f@ck it.

Balance is the key.
F@ck it lists are also important and much needed in our crazy lives; I think it would make a difference to make one and read it as a mantra every morning.
But dreams are what fuels our lives more than anything, so: YES to pondered and positive bucket lists, YES to achievable goals and YES to a better self for our own personal satisfaction.
NO to eternal scrolling of facebook and other social media to compare our lives to other people’s, NO to endless regret of past decisions, NO to self-improvements to satisfy someone other than US.

Monday, March 14, 2016

Lost in life

How do we get lost in life?
What do I mean with this? What is getting lost? 
It’s when you just go on day after day, without minding the important things, trapped in the routine. 
This might sound a bit tragic, but it’s what happens when your daily schedule is just to full and stressful and you can’t manage to stop thinking about work even on your free time.

One thing we read everyday and don't even know about it. Road signs. Without these signs we more than likely couldn't get around town and know where we are going. I have been lost before driving in unfamiliar places and these road signs helped me out a lot.:
How did it start?
For about three years I was unemployed. It’s something that might sound incredible to most people that don’t live in Italy. Is it really possible that you can’t find at least a Mac Donald’s that would hire you??? Yes, it is. 

To many people’s disbelief, I tried everything in these 3 years; due to my being already 29-30 years old and due to Italian taxes, laws etc, the only job I got for about 9 months was through an agency. Unstable on-call-shifts, dangerous places in the worst neighborhoods, crazy customers, constant calls on my private phone number on my free-time…shitty pay.
But I learnt a lot not only from the job, but also from many people that I have met and worked with.

Three years is a lot, it’s three years with almost no money, feeling useless and being home and quite alone-being my friends all at work or doing things I couldn’t afford to do. The silver lining in this was I started beading seriously and dedicated all my time to crafting. But I was quite depressed and in the end even beading or knitting didn’t give me so much joy anymore.
After this and after using all my money for a course that was quite useless, after the last work-for-free-job-offers, I finally found the courage to start a German course and move to Austria.

Now, to be clear: my German is still terribly elementary, I had to attend courses for months before being able to have a proper conversation with my roommate, and I still can’t understand the local dialect (which is the main form of communication here); but a few months after moving I got a job and now, 18 months after starting it, I got my second promotion to Trainee Manager.

I think I like who I am becoming. #quote:
Despite feeling terribly proud of myself, I also feel quite stressed from all that I have to learn and the fear of doing something wrong is always there: I have to run a department, make orders, organize employees, often taking care of the entire floor. Private life is quite hard working every week on different shifts, being these shifts never the same of your friends J

And, as it happens all the time: once you finally have the money to indulge yourself with anything, you don’t have any more time.
I feel often I waste most of my free time just browsing the internet with no purpose, just unconsciously looking for something that inspires me enough. Sometimes I start some projects or get really excited on something, then after a while I just drop it – not enough time, other priorities, blablabla…

I recently started to get an interest in Journaling and planners and I am still trying to figure out what and how and if I should give it a try.

Does making lists really help? Would you really look at them? Isn’t it a bit counterproductive to actually bring in your private life the stressing organization of the job-life? Shouldn’t your free time be more spontaneous and plan-free?

kate spade:
What I noticed is that, looking at other people’s journals, this methods can be a nice reminder of what is really important for you, which goals you have, which dreams you can actually pursue.

I found myself making a list of what I really want to achieve and learn in the next years and realize that, with a little bit of organization and, sure, of consistency, I could have already done most of them.

Plus...isn't this digital life frustrating at times???
To have the possibilities of taking millions of instant pictures, just to never really look at them...
Isn't there more then just selfies after a travel: all the little things that happen and were funny, just got lost in your brain cause all you do is taking fotos with your phone...
So many little sweet things that could make every day a celebration of life, just get lost cause we don't want to spend 5 minutes recording it somewhere else than instagram or facebook...
This is why I would like to give a try to travel journaling and bullet journaling; we will see in some weeks how long will my commitment last :) .

Friday, January 22, 2016

Winter knits

As many other beaders, and as it happens every winter, I have been stung again by the knitting bug.
Would have been nicer if it would have been the bead one... :)
In order to avoid every winter's mistakes - neverending scrolling of Pinterest and Ravelry, lots of euros spent for yarn, lots of unfinished and unworn projects left in the closet - I decided to dedicate myself to easy and stimulating little projects.
First one is the amazing Langfield, by Martina Behm.

I love her patterns. Who doesn't?!
If the self striping yarn and the interesting construction weren't enough to convince you, just know that you don't need to swatch to check your gauge for this hat, so no struggling at all! Just pick any color changing yarn and start knitting. Easiest hat ever, I wear it every day and received so many compliments - also from the lady in the yarn store :).
Another one for a guy is on its way!

The second project, again from her, is the Hitchhiker shawl.

Left in a drawer for almost 2 years, i picked it up again and remembered why paying more money for good needles is always worth it. I am bringing it always with me and hope to finish it before spring comes!

Last one, yeah already too many, another shawl. Hey, not my fault if the yarn store is next to my workplace!
It's the Baktus scarf, by Strikkelise.

Easiest thing ever, amazing wool that claims to contain jojoba and aloe vera, again self striping and yet "striped" with a neutral tone...if ever finished, will become my pass-partout.

One final note: a huge thank you to my Mom, who made me a surprise and bought me this gorgeous knitting bowl:

It's handmade by Toepferstudio, a Innsbruck based amazing lab/shop. Check out their website!

Thursday, January 21, 2016


Nobody likes to receive critics, that's for sure; but they can become, especially if nicely formulated, a good way to revise and improve your work.
Bad feedbacks are the worse, especially when you feel like people overreacted a bit and gave space to their frustration .

I received a very disappointed feedback for one of my tutorials just before Christmas. I felt quite bad about it, especially 'cause I find it a bit unfair and I never received complaints about them in these years of selling. I wanted to kindly contact the buyer to ask for explanation, in order to actually see what I did so bad to cause so much confusion and disappointment, but a person dear to me had a snow-related accident and my thoughts and priority went elsewhere. I also thought nobody wants to be bothered on Christmas time from a seller...

Twice in 3 years has a customer asked for some help and deeper instructions, which I was really happy to give; I drew additional schemes for them, we had a long conversation since they were beginners...one of these customers actually ended up collaborating with me and becoming a tester for a new tutorial!

Before creating my first tut, I decided to deeply analize bead tutorials from other (more famous) beaders and sellers: I am myself a buyer and what I wanted to achieve was a tutorial that also a total beginner might use.

This is why I made sure to use Illustrator to draw each and every single passage, even the really simple ones, to make sure that I didn't give anything for granted. Fotos might be tricky and I found myself more than once using my immagination to understand where the needle was supposed to go.

Far from me the idea of saying that my tutorials are great or perfect: they are just made with love and dedication and they are open to revision and endless help from my side.

Ok, I admit that all this is actually a way to excuse myself from never editing and selling the 2 new tutorials that are "almost" ready since two months on my laptop... but the feeling of disappointing a person is not easy to overcome.

I hope to cope better in the future :)

Friday, November 6, 2015

Perler beads decorations

Every kind of bead creates addiction...this is something nobody should underestimate.
Some time ago I was already playing with Hama beads..or Pyssla...I was just using them as huge sort of Miyuki beads and beadweaving them to create some decorations.
Actually it was 2011 and i forgot about them since last week, when i found on Pinterest some amazing projects,  made using these beads in the proper way: with pegboard and iron.

So i started playing, until i decided to make something bigger:

This  scheme is not mine and it's difficult to give credit, since many people used it...I made it in 3 hours and it was absolute fun!
I thought it was going to take days,  but once you start...

I am sorry for the poor quality of my photos but lately i can only use tablet and cellphone..my laptop doesn't want to connect to internet and I feel a bit lost without all my tools and the possibility of using a proper camera for pics.
Only three days of vacation left and then I will have less time for these projects...

Wednesday, October 28, 2015

Starry unicorn

After almost one year of no beading and crazy upside-downs in my life (finally more ups than downs), I lost control of my credit card and made agin a big bead order.
Ok, not so big, but enough to get inspired again to squeeze some time to sit on the table with thread and needle.

What I did, needless to say, is again another star, just notnChristmas related this time...

Was supposed to be a unicorn and needs still some details adjustments,  but I am happy to welcome back my muse..hope she will stay longer this time.

Friday, December 26, 2014

Happy Holidays!

I hope everybody is having happy holidays with beloved friends or family - or both!

I am FINALLY enjoy some amazing snow!!! It is a paradise in here!

Friday, December 19, 2014

Gingerbread Star!

Seems like a long, long time has passed....wait...it's already 5 months since my last post!!!
Haven't been beading lately, but experimenting with patterns. And with my life.

Since I got a job in a big store in September, and I also continued with the German school, it's been impossible for me to do anything else. But I found some volunteers that tested my latest pattern and...
Without further ado...

What do you think?
The actual beadwork and the pic are from April Barnes, a customer that turned this last month into a helper and adviser, and I have to say it is good to be a little pushed from someone who likes your work.

Gingerbread cookies are really popular in Austria, their name is Lebkuchen and taste amazingly. You can't see all the details here, but a pattern will be soon released... just in time for Christmas!

Saturday, July 5, 2014

EBW July Challenge: The Most Colorful Animals

Yes, I am alive! And, hear hear, I am finally partecipating to the monthly EBW challenge!
This month the theme is The Most Colorful Animals, and my mind couldn't stop thinking about this creature:

Source: Pinterest
I discovered the Mantis Shrimp thanks to The Oatmeal, and I suggest you all jump to his amazing website and read this infographic he created.
Stunning, isn't it?!
This little, amazing creature can break glass. Can you imagine that?!
So playing with CRAW I attempted to make a tiny Mantis Shrimp

and I came up with a wrap bracelet

I love how the tummy came out, even though this part is a work of fantasy

I promise better pics in the morning, in the meanwhile it's already dark in here and I had to rush to post this last minute creation.
Don't forget to jump on out team blog http://etsy-beadweavers.blogspot.co.at/ to vote for your favourite colored animal from the 5th July until the 16th!!!

Thursday, May 22, 2014

Batik Dangles on Jewelry Affaire

------------Still hopping for the Bead Soup? HERE is my reveal!------------

I have been published on Jewelry Affaire for the second time, and also this time I have to wait further before my lovely BF brings me my copy of the magazine.
Here is a super cra**y-but-lovely-pic made with his cell:

Simple earrings chosen by the editor herself.
Can't wait to read the entire magazine, it is so luscious and interesting and hope to be part of it again!